i dont want to know

the magic and the misery

they won't get the best of you

she won't get the best of me

wont be there when you call

tough luck
hard fuck

blank nights
cold lights

why do we have two of these blogs? what's the history? i don't remember

the story cut short

how can you break the shackles
of pressure to be someone youre not

how can you be yourself
if theres still a part of you that shes got

how can you pursue passion
and not get engulfed in flames

how can you live again
when all thats lost still remains

aint it what it never was?

persistence is the key to disappointment

there's nothing left
it isn't right
straight through the edge
down by the side

i dont understand ...

friends

it just feels good to know that no matter whatever crap life throws at you during the day, there will always be those friends you can always look for at the end of it

i think i think too much

fucked up day

i'd get out of the pool when it starts raining cuz i'm afraid of getting wet

lonely is the night for the broken man

cold dark night
wind swept streets
flickering streetlights
one lonely soul
head hung low
hands in pocket
drags his feet
past one lamp post to another
into darkness
and emptiness
where nothing awaits

toads hushed in his wake
the silence
grows louder
and louder
like a piece of glass
stretching and stretching
growing ever larger
thinner and thinner
and then
the scream of a racing bike
shatters the moment
into a million shards

and there
he stood
left in a pool of shards
fragments of memories
of a time long gone
gone
and never back again

and there
he stood
rooted
thoughts lost in the silence
broken
but growing once again
to fill the night
back to how it was
how it should be
how it would be

!!!

feeling ever so bored and helpless
can't figure out if it's the end that's in sight
any reprieve will suffice

rising tides

it's hard to fight rising tides when you know they won't subside
harder to fake a smile when you know you should have cried
worst to know it would have been different if you even tried
so i'll walk the line and take the chance and fight with all my might
dive in and struggle against the rising tides

so long, forgone

i tried to put in words these thoughts i can't complete
but still i trip and stumble over these lines i cannot skip
because to you and only you the truth is all that i will speak
and while truth hurts and pain lingers without you i cannot sleep