by the entrance of the tube

you caught my eye
and left me blind

you stole my breath
and left me gasping

you ate my words
and left me with nothing to say

went pounding a path a haven't been down in awhile
reigniting remnants of a lost vision

313 and all that is left of me

and you won't read that book again because the ending's just too hard to take

when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven

sweet as sugar

searching ...

still trying to find a way to make the most out of the electric guitar. like to use it as an electric guitar. not as an acoustic. by itself. theres so much to its sound, but so little to my capabilities.

like raindrops in terminal velocity

out in the heavy rain
i can't repeat what's been said
nor show how its done
'cause with your hand in mine
we'll run

came close to falling
just as close to succeeding
and just as we got closer
with the next step we took
we got further

it's where we are
and where we want to be
it's who we are
and who we want to be

we were never near
nor were we too far
like two parallel lines
never to part

we were bold
we were sold
and with stories untold
no one will ever know

take my hand
and i won't let you stand
alone

honest, crystal clear, and without a cut of doubt

ain't there when it's gone

i live in the clouds

worn and weary
can't see what's down the road
nor remember what i've left behind

so we'll make it out just like we used to be
just like it was in my dreams

and so castles made of sand fall in the sea
eventually

6 more days

i so need my pay
but i don't know what for

maybe i just love the idea of having more money in the bank

no
they don't
and they can't
excite me

anymore

please tell me that you won't let go

i need a fairytale for myself

one-nil

a chill, a thrill, or a double bill?

3's no good for tea

so it's gonna be just that?
as it is?
leave it?

i'm no good but i want to play for a band.

tiny dancer

please don't die on me

stuck so far, far, far away

can't decide if its a good thing
going back to where it all started
too early to rejoice
or wallow in self pity
well i guess i'll just have to wait and see

time is ever short
never with an extra moment to ponder
or wonder
and so this spells an early goodbye

remedy for a breakout

lots of sleep, water and doxycycline
(at least for me)

21

back in singapore today, back in camp tomorrow
it is the same,yet different thing altogether
since i've been gone
and back yet again

ok here i go

back(i hope) in 3 weeks
for now
til then
and for then
byes! :)




:(

turning out the way it turned out to be

crazy attempt to jus do the first draft up here but that was how it turned out. cuz the words jus seem to flow better when im typing it straight in this window as compared to when im getting it down on paper. stuff to sort out before leaving but not really putting in enough effort to get them done. well i guess its time to hit the deck. pretty late. at least i got sth done frm staying up this time. one day i hope i'd get it. wish me luck please cuz i need lots of it

ok not a good attempt but at least i tried. bound to get better. cant get any worse rite?

c g am - am f - am g



if i asked for your (c)hand

would you show me how to (g)dance

take me through each foot(am)step

as we weave round the (f)floor



if i asked to go to the (c)beach

would you lie with me on the (g)sand

watch the clouds float (am)by

in the clear blue (f)sky



and (g)could i ask if you'd fill that mis(f)sing piece in my heart

or (g)would you just stand there and watch as (f)my life falls apart

at the (em)seams

as it (am)seems



if i asked for the (c)rain

would you just go (g)insane

we could run and (am)play

in the rain all (f)day


if i asked for just one (c)night

would you lie with me under the moon(g)light

let me feel whats its (am)like

to have you by my (f)side



and (g)could i ask if you'd fill that mis(f)sing piece in my heart

or (g)would you just stand there and watch as (f)my life falls apart

at the (em)seams

as it (am)seems



would you give me a (c)chance

would you hear what i (g)say

could i please see your (am)face

just for one more (f)day

if only were blind

lost his mind
lost in his mind
still trying to find
someone of his kind

like the fisherman who, barefoot, stepped on one of his own hooks

hello forgotten place, it's been a long time..

he flew his plane too low, now there are too many he left with empty arms.

now i'm walking through the crash site of somebody's past life

now he's parting the clouds as tomorrow shines fiercely on this wreckage

his skeletal hands

capsule

spinning in the tiny bubble
swirling in circles
round and round exploding in colours
time stretches and shrinks
like a spring it blinks

comes to a standstill while the heart sinks
but the second hand races on
right down at the bottom the mind is alert
but the heart is stuck deep down in the dirt

---

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building up into nothing

in the clouds

higher and higher up

brought down by rain

washed away whatever weighed me down

but together with it took me down

droplets

through my hair

down my face

down my neck

over my chest

clothes clung like cling wrap

trickles

streams

down

for how long

head hung low

tears flowed

dealt yet with another blow

again left in the cold

will you be bold

hold on to your soul

against what you know

what courage

just a mirage

you see it

but it aint there

you punch it

but its all air

placed faith in it

but it aint fair

til then

for now

i don't know what is and isn't there

chance

the moment
so fragile
threatened to shatter if you'd try to reach out for it
can't grab it like you'd want to
only thing you could do
is just to wait
for it to engulf you
to feel it
to enjoy it
and then its gone
can't bring it back

can you take me higher?

nice week. tough walk. now just waiting for the badge. left me really tired. dint know what i was blabbering for b.i.t. . taught the wrong stuff. gold and silver hedp round. bleh. hope the corrected one got in their heads. events that capped off the week made the end a subdued one. or in thomas's words a seduced one. anw i dont know if im using words correctly here. getting really bad with language. and practically everything else. including sth not really expected. physical fitness. ippt cat test next week doesnt sound real good to me. short weekend. dont know what i can make of it. in camp nxt wk. sounds good. but not ippt and soc.

music fills my mind and takes me places. just cant explain that in words. but i like it.

the trip

much easier week ahead. i'm hoping. survive the walk and shoot and i'd be fine. other than some nasty people i'd be meeting in the week ahead. hope i make it out of camp early this friday. stuff to see too.

on another aspect. i'm still having trouble piecing the random thoughts together. the draining of mental capacity and capability is not helping either. neither is the rotting of my command of the english language and the lack of an avenue to brush up my chinese. hope to put something coherent sometime soon. or at least put up a deadline for that. what i'm thinking. what i'm seeing. all that i am. all there is to be.

flashes (goes as it comes)

the wait
the run
can't say for how much longer
i'll wait and see
how it goes
on and on
til it drops
it won't stop
the visions
the dreams
hopes and aspirations
where i'd like to be
what i'd hope you see

steel heart

tough week ahead
after a short weekend
gtg
gg

another week in the 'life'

2 good weeks
looks like another ahead
10k csb test
section quick attack live firing
and lots of lessons
pity thers guard duty
not rly lucky to get weekend duty
but anyhows
hopes this week turns out to be what it promises to be
a good one like the past 2
then after that
gotta embrace the field camps to come
:(

a handful of air

struck my heart like a meteor
left it in pieces scattered like stars across the universe
these fragments
just won't leave
like moons orbiting around planets
or planets round the sun
pulled in by that force
that just won't let go
it knows
it can't hold on forever
but still it tries
i know
it can't let go

this is it

still alive

first week was, well, ok. i guess. but enjoying my weekend while i can. ends tmr evening. demo. mg. 8km. 10km. shooting competition(dots). 3 day weekend. up nxt

and lots of live firings in the weeks to come
including uo (fux)
tough life
soon i'd be able to add short as an adjective to life too

:/

geared up and ready to go be a superhero!
aslc ftw... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

not quite what i'd want it to be ... but well lets just see how it goes
and so here we go again

no pictures or a thousand words
no hint of joy or tinge of regret
but the notes string on into a melody
weaving
bringing neither colour nor texture
looping
leaving neither knots or patterns
no direction or correction
but it goes on

need for speed

finally got down to running. after days of procrastination. though was obviously lacking physically. the lacking of mentally was especially appalling. gotta work on it. couple of days left. havnt done much pt. hope life's not too tough next week. but right now. a terrible headache

and then i drew a blank

no need to be emptied cuz was empty all the while
small touches here and there will do it no good neither will it be harmed
it extends and expands
never to end
i started
but starting is never enough
i tried
but trying is never enough
i waited
and waited

is in its incoherence
the bottomless pit
of nothingness
holes in socks
in it
it out
reach
toes
out
to touch nothing
falling
and falling...

lost my mind

can't describe
nothing to hide
with will and might
none on my side
(as the chili peppers would have said, i could have lied)

makes me wonder

sun shines
sweat streaks
into my eyes
as i squint to catch that ray
wind caresses
gently urge the clouds
as they clear away
makes me wonder
what goes beyond
that piece of blue

night falls
clouds return
sky on fire
watch clouds burn
rain's coming
run for cover
look around
cant escape
not at tp2e
but that's where i'll go
where cats and dogs call
where the cold wind blows (and bellows)
soaked
shivers in the chill
makes me wonder
if i'll last through the night

you go down and down and want it out. but no, no you won't get it, not without any humilation first

1. try harder
2. try even harder
3. hit the bed

lots of crazy ideas #@!%£š¤¶Æ§

the downs and downs of being nineteen...

no i don't wanna go back (there, or anywhere)
no i don't
take me home (here)

i'd want to go back to school though

i feel like i'm 15.

how to cut out the bad intestine

i will be responsible.

cover
recover

well here's a cold shot

the willie nelson song that tells me

i'm never at home and i'm always alone, even with someone i love

...but i don't want to go out
and my mum wont let me grow up to be a cowboy