as much as i would like to say i love life
i can't get myself to lie
for i can't seem to remember the last thing that went right
must have been a long while ago
or perhaps never was anything so

why study so hard to get below average grades?

ok to be fair i was sleeping for almost all lectures throughout the year and hardly did tutuorials
so i guess it wasn't tt bad
is that all i can muster as an excuse/ consolation?

what time gives

more words that you want to but somehow can't say
more things that you try to but somehow don't understand
more things that you should but somehow can't do

life's tough, complicated, and is a complete irony

maybe it wouldn't be so bad stuck in reverse

please take me back to the start.

it doesnt always work better on paper (i like it non-print)

chinese lessons yesterday were a waste of time
only served one purpose
to give me the affirmation i needed of my failure in promos and soon to be of ao lvls
aft tt went to the art thingy in sch with lenny and he claimed he was damn inspired
or rather, inspi-rart

cant figure out why though thers quite abit of stuff to be done
still feels like it has been and will be boring for some time
maybe cuz the things to be done aren't rly things i want to do and therefore am trying to avoid them
like clearing stuff out
then there are also the stuff that i wld rly like to do
but its like will feel guilty if i dun study chinese and instead go do these stuff
cuz havnt read the chinese text book once yet this year

anyhows im gonna get them done starting nov 3
aft i & r is done

(for my own reference, but for u too if u'd like it to be)
things to do now til 3rd nov:
1. study chinese
2. op
3. i & r
4. file this year's work
5. tidy my room

aft 3rd nov:
1. shirts
2. scrapbooks
3. recipes
4. fish tank
5. plants
6. mug (i'd try, but probably not get anything done here)

things to buy for the hols:
1. by the way (though its kinda a little late, but cant wait)
2. shoes
3. clothes (juz cleared the cupboard and have almost nothing left)
4. niandra lades and usually just a t shirt (probably, which most probably means no)
5. bag (probably too)
6. wallet (if i c a nice one that fits my wallet)

ok now i c it aint that empty but for now til 3rd nov stil looks set to be boring
though its getting kinda abita tight so i shld like start working on stuff soon

Maybe

Maybe,
If i pray everyday,
You'll come back to me.
And maybe,
If i call everyday,
You'll come back to stay.
Oh maybe.


Maybe,
If i hold, your hand,
You will understand.
And maybe,
If i kiss, your lips,
I'll be at your command.
Oh maybe,
Oh maybe.

lol ok attempted lasagna and cheesecake
lasagna was ok but cheesecake wasnt too good
but i guess the results were great for a first timer

i was traumatised

i'm not gonna touch my guit for the moment
dint do the guit justice by playing like tt

roughly got an idea on making lasagna
though i've hardly eaten any in my life
n i've juz briefly read through 3 or 4 recipes online
dint like mug them or anyth
so i'm juz gonna anyhows now
dunnd to be exactly like lasagna
as long as i get it edible i'd be happy
n i'm not gonna prnt any recipe or take down a list of ingredients
i'd juz go to the supermarket n buy what i rmb to
then watch how it screws up
ok wish me luck

then again i might not go out to get the stuff since i'm feeling lazy as always
ok maybe i read about cheese cakes first
then if i'm feeling good i'd get stuff for pork burgers too
sth i'v worked on last time but nv got it completed
too lazy to do so
time to stop being lazy since promos are over

how they stole the show

ok i promise to be back next week

and this is how you do it ...