chance

the moment
so fragile
threatened to shatter if you'd try to reach out for it
can't grab it like you'd want to
only thing you could do
is just to wait
for it to engulf you
to feel it
to enjoy it
and then its gone
can't bring it back

can you take me higher?

nice week. tough walk. now just waiting for the badge. left me really tired. dint know what i was blabbering for b.i.t. . taught the wrong stuff. gold and silver hedp round. bleh. hope the corrected one got in their heads. events that capped off the week made the end a subdued one. or in thomas's words a seduced one. anw i dont know if im using words correctly here. getting really bad with language. and practically everything else. including sth not really expected. physical fitness. ippt cat test next week doesnt sound real good to me. short weekend. dont know what i can make of it. in camp nxt wk. sounds good. but not ippt and soc.

music fills my mind and takes me places. just cant explain that in words. but i like it.

the trip

much easier week ahead. i'm hoping. survive the walk and shoot and i'd be fine. other than some nasty people i'd be meeting in the week ahead. hope i make it out of camp early this friday. stuff to see too.

on another aspect. i'm still having trouble piecing the random thoughts together. the draining of mental capacity and capability is not helping either. neither is the rotting of my command of the english language and the lack of an avenue to brush up my chinese. hope to put something coherent sometime soon. or at least put up a deadline for that. what i'm thinking. what i'm seeing. all that i am. all there is to be.

flashes (goes as it comes)

the wait
the run
can't say for how much longer
i'll wait and see
how it goes
on and on
til it drops
it won't stop
the visions
the dreams
hopes and aspirations
where i'd like to be
what i'd hope you see

steel heart

tough week ahead
after a short weekend
gtg
gg

another week in the 'life'

2 good weeks
looks like another ahead
10k csb test
section quick attack live firing
and lots of lessons
pity thers guard duty
not rly lucky to get weekend duty
but anyhows
hopes this week turns out to be what it promises to be
a good one like the past 2
then after that
gotta embrace the field camps to come
:(

a handful of air

struck my heart like a meteor
left it in pieces scattered like stars across the universe
these fragments
just won't leave
like moons orbiting around planets
or planets round the sun
pulled in by that force
that just won't let go
it knows
it can't hold on forever
but still it tries
i know
it can't let go

this is it