if only were blind

lost his mind
lost in his mind
still trying to find
someone of his kind

like the fisherman who, barefoot, stepped on one of his own hooks

hello forgotten place, it's been a long time..

he flew his plane too low, now there are too many he left with empty arms.

now i'm walking through the crash site of somebody's past life

now he's parting the clouds as tomorrow shines fiercely on this wreckage

his skeletal hands

capsule

spinning in the tiny bubble
swirling in circles
round and round exploding in colours
time stretches and shrinks
like a spring it blinks

comes to a standstill while the heart sinks
but the second hand races on
right down at the bottom the mind is alert
but the heart is stuck deep down in the dirt

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building up into nothing

in the clouds

higher and higher up

brought down by rain

washed away whatever weighed me down

but together with it took me down

droplets

through my hair

down my face

down my neck

over my chest

clothes clung like cling wrap

trickles

streams

down

for how long

head hung low

tears flowed

dealt yet with another blow

again left in the cold

will you be bold

hold on to your soul

against what you know

what courage

just a mirage

you see it

but it aint there

you punch it

but its all air

placed faith in it

but it aint fair

til then

for now

i don't know what is and isn't there

chance

the moment
so fragile
threatened to shatter if you'd try to reach out for it
can't grab it like you'd want to
only thing you could do
is just to wait
for it to engulf you
to feel it
to enjoy it
and then its gone
can't bring it back

can you take me higher?

nice week. tough walk. now just waiting for the badge. left me really tired. dint know what i was blabbering for b.i.t. . taught the wrong stuff. gold and silver hedp round. bleh. hope the corrected one got in their heads. events that capped off the week made the end a subdued one. or in thomas's words a seduced one. anw i dont know if im using words correctly here. getting really bad with language. and practically everything else. including sth not really expected. physical fitness. ippt cat test next week doesnt sound real good to me. short weekend. dont know what i can make of it. in camp nxt wk. sounds good. but not ippt and soc.

music fills my mind and takes me places. just cant explain that in words. but i like it.

the trip

much easier week ahead. i'm hoping. survive the walk and shoot and i'd be fine. other than some nasty people i'd be meeting in the week ahead. hope i make it out of camp early this friday. stuff to see too.

on another aspect. i'm still having trouble piecing the random thoughts together. the draining of mental capacity and capability is not helping either. neither is the rotting of my command of the english language and the lack of an avenue to brush up my chinese. hope to put something coherent sometime soon. or at least put up a deadline for that. what i'm thinking. what i'm seeing. all that i am. all there is to be.

flashes (goes as it comes)

the wait
the run
can't say for how much longer
i'll wait and see
how it goes
on and on
til it drops
it won't stop
the visions
the dreams
hopes and aspirations
where i'd like to be
what i'd hope you see

steel heart

tough week ahead
after a short weekend
gtg
gg

another week in the 'life'

2 good weeks
looks like another ahead
10k csb test
section quick attack live firing
and lots of lessons
pity thers guard duty
not rly lucky to get weekend duty
but anyhows
hopes this week turns out to be what it promises to be
a good one like the past 2
then after that
gotta embrace the field camps to come
:(

a handful of air

struck my heart like a meteor
left it in pieces scattered like stars across the universe
these fragments
just won't leave
like moons orbiting around planets
or planets round the sun
pulled in by that force
that just won't let go
it knows
it can't hold on forever
but still it tries
i know
it can't let go

this is it

still alive

first week was, well, ok. i guess. but enjoying my weekend while i can. ends tmr evening. demo. mg. 8km. 10km. shooting competition(dots). 3 day weekend. up nxt

and lots of live firings in the weeks to come
including uo (fux)
tough life
soon i'd be able to add short as an adjective to life too

:/

geared up and ready to go be a superhero!
aslc ftw... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

not quite what i'd want it to be ... but well lets just see how it goes
and so here we go again

no pictures or a thousand words
no hint of joy or tinge of regret
but the notes string on into a melody
weaving
bringing neither colour nor texture
looping
leaving neither knots or patterns
no direction or correction
but it goes on

need for speed

finally got down to running. after days of procrastination. though was obviously lacking physically. the lacking of mentally was especially appalling. gotta work on it. couple of days left. havnt done much pt. hope life's not too tough next week. but right now. a terrible headache

and then i drew a blank

no need to be emptied cuz was empty all the while
small touches here and there will do it no good neither will it be harmed
it extends and expands
never to end
i started
but starting is never enough
i tried
but trying is never enough
i waited
and waited

is in its incoherence
the bottomless pit
of nothingness
holes in socks
in it
it out
reach
toes
out
to touch nothing
falling
and falling...