easier said than done

last night i dreamt that i could look into the future and i saw that i would die in the year 2076. for some reason. perhaps a timely dream. at first, it seemed like a long long way away. then i realised it isn't really that far away. if i even had 80 years, i had already spent a quarter without knowing it. and it dawned on me that i hadn't been happy most of these 20. i had spent far too much of it mulling over all i couldn't do and hadn't done to be happy. maybe its really time to take charge. of all i can do. and all i want to. as i had said, life's too short. and then i had to have that dream. perhaps it really is time to wake up from all this unhappiness brought on by myself onto myself. well i wouldn't know if i'd die tomorrow. all i can do is make the most out of it today. but i wouldn't know if i'd die today. all i have is now. the past's gone. the future's not for me to say. so i guess its time to pull up